I'm scared.
Really Scared.
I have a doctors appointment on Thursday to look at this dodgy mole I have. My grandfather died of skin cancer, a dodgy mole is one of the symptoms of skin Cancer.
Lorraine's mum has been diagnosed with heart cancer, and I was looking it up on wikipedia. Then i looked up skin cancer, and it turns out the majority of deaths due to skin cancer are because of Malignant Melanoma, which is the type of skin cancer induced started off in moles. According to wikipedia, it has a mortality rate of 15-20%.
I'm scared out of my soul. I have my whole life ahead of me. I don't want to die. I don't want to have to have chemotherapy. I was talking about growing my hair long again the other day.
Also on wikipedia it said that you should be careful if you have moles made up of various colours. My mole is light around the edge, then dark brown, then almost black in the middle. I should also watch out for elevated moles. My mole juts out above the rest of my skin. And also I should watch out if I have a history of skin cancer in my family. I'm scared.
I look at my mole thinking it may be the death of me. And even if it isn't it might wreck my life. I'm happy. I'm a good person. What did I do to deserve this? I can't tell anyone, but I need to. I need to talk to someone. I can't wait til Thursday. I don't want to think that my life may end early. I want to be a pilot. I want my life. I want to live it out. I don't want to depress my family.
I'm scared.
I'm so scared.